In everything that has been challenging us these days, we take it with gladness and vigor. For I know personally that there is always a rainbow after the rain. This adage is so meaningful to me ever since. I’ve been very lucky and blessed all these years because I’ve got very supportive and loving family and friends. Though not mostly financially we are full but bountiful prayers which fills our home. For me, it’s not the monetary gain that matters a lot. Yes, we need money these days to live a rather comfortable life but at the end of the day, we are all humans and bound to die and meet our Creator. Money cannot go with us when we die instead prayers are much needed for our souls. These are just my little realizations up to now, still I’m overwhelmed. Happy Pentecost Sunday everyone! ^_^
Limbo
The day’s been so tough to me here. I have been damn knackered every day and I cannot but complain about it. I always say to myself that it’s my decision to come home and work again with English Fella so whatever the consequences may be, I have to accept it with open arms. Though I still have dreams to go abroad but not in the soonest possible time. I have to let time pass first and see things happen as they are. Later I must decide whether to stay here really for good or work abroad again. This time, it’s not gonna be in Asia or Mid-east, I hope. I don’t know, but I believe I’m just not that content with my life here that cause me to always think of other possibilities . For now, I must convince myself that everything’s gonna be fine. Gotta doze off for now, forlks. Ciao!
So far…
I’ve been terribly busy again these past few days since we have hired 18 teachers. As one of the trainers here, I’ve also been bombarded with a lot of activities to do on my end. My hands are always full and there’s no reason for me not to finish the tasks every day as there are more tasks to be completed for the rest of the week. Tomorrow’s gonna be taxing for we need to pick the weaklings and say goodbyes to them though it’s very difficult to choose who’s gonna be in or out. Huh! How I wish I wasn’t a part of the decision making but I have to take part of the responsibilities. God, I never thought it’s gonna be this haaaarrrrdddd… 
Just Random Thoughts – Conscious Listening
Listening is an art. Whether you agree or disagree, it is really an art for only a few people have mastered their listening skills. By that, I mean, practicing the use of conscious listening. Then, will there be thorough and concrete understanding of the things a person hears. Through conscious listening, a person fully comprehends everything the other person is sharing. Sometimes, these people are considered just too silent for most of the times those people who love to blabber a lot are just too busy minding their own thoughts. This, I think is the worst thing to happen – the absence of communication. That is why many people or tribes argue and to the extent fight for something just because they just cannot accept each other’s principles. Only if each person gives the other a chance to fully explain everything before talking, then, there will be no more arguments or war to the worst extent. But why don’t we just learn the proper way of listening in schools? I believe it must be given an important role in a student’s curriculum.
Been Through a Lot…
I’ve been through a lot lately and I can say that it all made me anew. For one thing, the intellectual argument I had last week made me realize that not all people are good and considerate. Some are close-minded morons. For that, they don’t deserve even a single respect. At work I am trying my best to be civil at all times with her but I don’t know what’s it like when we meet outside. I don’t care. It’s just that it bothers me a lot much more whenever I see her damn face. Secondly, busyness is an art and healing. It nurtures my imagination and quick thinking. Whenever I’m busy I always have this feeling of satisfaction deep inside that I’m never idle for the day and that my imagination is always working not only thinking what to do next but also other matters that I have to finish for the day. In the end, what’s more important are the accomplished tasks for the day and the complete plan for the next days.
Skirmish and Fracas
Two new words I’ve learned today – skirmish and fracas. These two are very significant. Let me tell you this short story. Well, this afternoon, I’ve just had a very remarkable noisy argument with my colleague here at work. It took for a while – nearly thirty minutes and in fact, I consumed partly some time of my training session for the day. It’s just that I really need to stand up for what I believe is right and true. That caused us to argue noisily for quite some time. Even to this day, I still haven’t healed myself though I’m wishing that it’d get better soon so that we can work even better. Despite that, damage has been done and she can never get back the old times. Sad but true.
Apprehensive about Something Unknown
Whose afraid of the unknown? Are you? Will you be? Who isn’t anyway? For some people the unknown is frightening and even nerve wrecking at times only the mind knows. People invent, discover, wonder, think and do but if the unknown is being brought up somehow in more ways than one nobody I think would say isn’t afraid of it. This thought just occurred to me just moments ago thinking of some what ifs in my head which I think isn’t good to be fed even more. So right at this moment as I am clicking my fingers on the keyboard, I am trying to do my best to shun all these thoughts in my head so I can be more at peace within myself. This way I am no longer a slave of my apprehensions even when I don’t know what they are. I strongly believe that it’s only you – the mind person can truly liberate yourself form any thing in this weird world of humans. Has this occurred to you as well? Smiles. 